Still I Rise

Besides being quite stressed about finances, things are pretty good. I’m mostly writing so I can share this cover of Iris. I love the lyrics to this song so much. And nerd me automatically thinks of Castiel and Dean from Supernatural. And then I think of my first girlfriend, laura. I think she watched the…

I guess she really will be just another person I knew once, a long time ago. That is fucking weird. But I really think I’m finally over it.

Two and a half years I spent chasing her friendship. Two and a half YEARS. What sane person hangs on that long? Seriously? Holy fuck I need to get a grip.

I know I’ve said it before, or thought it, but I think I can finally let go. I think I have. Once I realized I’d been trying in some ways to ‘win’ her back for THREE FUCKING YEARS, well, that feels like enough, lol.

I need to rant for a minute. I’ve been rolling this around in my head for a few days. While in Barrie one sister told me I was “too brutally honest” and the other I have “too high expectations” for people responding to me/not ignoring me. I….arrrrrrrrrrrgh. Ok I can probably learn to work on…

Today was really hard. I spent it alone and plans I had fell through. My train tomorrow got cancelled but thankfully my sister helped me get a new ticket for wednesday. I think if I didn’t end up going I would have lost it. I already cried when I thought I wasn’t going. And I…

We’ll see if it produces the desired result. Probably not.